So next year I am hoping to complete my third year of uni. I never saw me saying that sentence, not ever! Seriously, me completing university? How the hell did that happen lol. I was in an access to learning fund meeting where the lecturer said “you are all highly intelligent individuals, you have proven that by getting into uni and completing you exams for the last 2 years”. Ha! I never considered myself a highly intelligent human being, still don’t really. In my mind, he was talking to everyone else and what he was saying had nothing at all to do with me! Lmao.
Anyway, now is the time I need to start thinking, what the hell am I going to do with myself one I have completed uni? I mean I never envisaged myself completing uni in the first place, so although I gave the talk of I’m going to do this, I’m going to do that. I don’t think I ever really believed it. Yet here I am deciding what I want to do with the rest of my life and I have come to the conclusion that I most definitely wish to become a counsellor. The thing that I wanted to do when I first set out on this journey 5 years ago! lol. I have been through so many different career choices since then buut I always come back to wanting to become a counsellor. So that is probably the right move for me. I mean I wouldn’t come back to it if it were not would I?
So there is my choice now it is just how I go about getting there. I have been searching for ages on how to become a counsellor but am struggling to find what I can do if I already have a degree, so my next move is going to be making another appointment with careers and find out how to go about becoming a qualified counsellor. I have tried looking into the open university courses but not had much luck with that to be honest. Seems that a lot of the courses out there are either before degree level or degree level but having a degree in counselling does not make you a qualified counsellor. So I am a little stuck at the moment.
I do however know that I shall be moving once I finish my degree. My mum has been away for the past couple of weeks and I have been a changed person because I’m not constantly expecting to get called back or wondering what’s happening. I know if I move away I can’t be called up by her and have to go round, or feel like I should be doing something because I won’t be living there so it won’t be so easy for me to pop round there and help out. So I think I will become a little more strict with myself and be able to distance myself from it all.
I have spoken to one of my best friends about this and she suggested maybe moving up there to Prestatyn and that seems like a good plan to me to be honest. I mean I’m too far away to go running whenever she needs me yet close enough, that i anything happens I can get there quickly enough. This however means I need to either find a course in counselling there or do an OU course in it. Which as I have mentioned before I am struggling to find one. I just don’t want to have done all of this for nothing.
I have considered taking a year old to kind of rest and bring myself to a better place. I started all this because I decided I wanted to get an education whilst I was ill so I weren’t sitting on my backside doing nothing. Yet now I feel my education is putting so much pressure on me I don’t have time to get well. Don’t get me wrong, nothing will make me give up university. Not a thing but I think I have in a way forgotten about getting well and have started to accept being ill and I really do not want that. So maybe a year out is what I need. Time to recuperate and actually work on getting better and then going into counsellor training? Who knows. All these questions in my head and no answers as yet lol
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